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Observations:

1) Spent entire early portion of evening at Tai Chi with a delightful mix of people. Left happy. Sore, but happy.

2) Went briefly to compare homework answers at place which contained some of the same delightful mix of people, with the exception of one Hawk replacing one Foxe. Left angry, pissy, and irritated.

3) Don't like allowing others to copy homework answers. Don't mind at all if it's part of an explanation and they come to know the answers through interchange. But if they already know how to do it and just haven't bothered to install the smurfing software and expect me to let them copy a lengthy answer - they can just get off their high smurfing horse, take the twenty smurfing minutes to learn the software, and print out the smurfing answer themselves. Call me a smurfing goody-two-shoes, but that's the way my principles work.


4) Was touched by a Hawk's offer, as made by his soft side in the early evening. Got pissed off by his hard side later.

Conclusions:

1) Feeling supremely irritated at Hawk. For the simple reason that I knew his soft side first, treasured it dearly, and then got exposed to his hard side. Which seems to irritate the smurfing squirrels out of me on a regular basis. More's the pity, since it's apparently the dominant side these days. It's unfair that initial impressions color everything so, but that's the way it goes.
1a) When and if Hawk reads this, I'm not entirely sure what response I'll get. Right now, I don't smurfing care. I told him once that if I was pissed at him, he'd hear it from me first. That was a promise made to his soft side. His hard side can blow my squirrels. Besides, this is from me, just not over smurfing IM.

2) Don't regret standing by principles. At all. Irritated that I had to call them in at all.

3) Foxe brings me lots of joy on a regular basis. Er macht das Deutsch sehr schoen. Und er tanze mit mich.

Comments

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halophoenix
Feb. 13th, 2002 11:30 am (UTC)
hang in there.
smurf.

Keep in mind that for every sweet thing someone does there's a devious thought in their head. For every softhearted individual there's the potential inside them to do something horrible. For every light there's darkness for all of us...and although we might get accustomed to seeing the side of us that best defines who we are, we're never complete without the other side....irritated I can totally understand, just don't let yourself be surprised, you know? ~_^

In the meantime, just remember that seeing someone's Other side means that it's only a short matter of time before they show you the side you're accustomed to again. It's like me saying I'm trying to rid myself of my gentle nature-I know that deep inside me there are places where it doesn't exist.

jalenstrix
Feb. 13th, 2002 12:07 pm (UTC)
Re: hang in there.
Yeah...it's just that he's giving me the distinct impression that his soft side only comes out once in a blue moon, unless he's attempting to date you, in which case, it comes out all the smurfing time. And then you form impressions of him as a lovely person and get irritated when he fails to be.

My worry: It's not a short matter of time until his soft side re-emerges. At least, not around me. Which is unbelievably heart-wrenching when I let it matter lots and aggravating as smurf when I let it matter a little.
halophoenix
Feb. 13th, 2002 01:20 pm (UTC)
Re: hang in there.
::pout:: it sounds like my theory is the inverse...that he's normally a pretty rough person and that occassionally he shows a softer side...and that it's not that it's a matter of time before you see the soft side again, but a matter of time before you see the hard side again...::hug:: I apologize.
jalenstrix
Feb. 13th, 2002 02:06 pm (UTC)
Re: hang in there.
Moo. Yeah, very much like - especially when I hear tell from other people who've known him for ages. He's normally a smurfing spoon. They weren't even aware his softer side existed until I waxed profusely about it. Bah. This is verging on heart-wrenching at the moment. And why? Because my subconscious hold to its impression of him as Good. So it believes he's choosing to behave this way for some reason, probably to distance himself. I'm not sure I buy it.

Curses, the smurfing spoon.

But thanks for the hug. :)
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